Current life

This afternoon, I chatted with my chatting buddy. We talked about others which is not good but very entertaining. Anyway, let's forget about others. Let's talk about me.

I have tons of interests; movie, fashion, music,politics, you name it.. But, I don't know what I want to be. In some way, I'm kinda Cristina from Vicky Cristina Barcelona. I'm not sure about what I want in life and love. Oh well, I can't stop thinking about life and love.

I like to talk with people, sharing my thoughts. Exploring others. I'm confused.

Please tell me, what should I do next? Where should I go?

I'm going to move out from my tiny little room soon. I'm going to miss this room so much. Tiny room without air-conditioner, but I like it so much. Every morning the sunlight wakes me up, sneaking in through my window. Feels like I'm waking up in my own room, not my temporary room. Splendid moment, indeed.

Dear mate, I know you haven't checked this video. So you have to do it now!

this is the link

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZOqc4B1GaN4

Until then, cheerio!

Perhaps

I found a journal to share something that I wouldn't share with others.

I sent a postcard to C to make our relationship works.

I met the old Chinese guy taxi driver that I used to curse and now I keep looking for him at 12pm, because he knows me and I know him and I get used to it.

Same old love and hate friendship.

Nothing lasts forever.

Moving on, face the reality.

Perhaps, if I don't have prejudice over almost everyone, I could be happier.

Perhaps, I don't need to think about others.

Perhaps...

I hate goodbyes

whispering Godspeed to the Korean Restaurant, especially the workers.
GOOD LUCK GOOD LUCK GOOD LUCK

All the best guys

Happy

A good friend of mine was telling me about this video

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kow8OoOCm6Y

Fifty People, One Question.

I like the last answer; I just wanna be happy.

Oh I guess I just wanna be happy.

I'm still facing the lowest moment, but this video has made me to re-think about life.

I just wanna be happy.

Thanks to a good friend of mine, you saved me, indirectly.

GODSPEED

Last night, I’d reached my lowest moment. I have tons of unfinished things which I’m not brave enough to getting it done soon. I was thinking about death. I thought it would be better if suddenly I could leave all those unfinished things.

When I was a kid, I always think that I will not reach the age above 30 years old. Why? I do not have plans for what I am about to do after 30 years old. I kept reading the tragic death of young people. I want people to remember me after I die, hence I need to die young and in tragic accident. I’m scared that I couldn’t see myself in the future.

When I grew older, I listened to many songs and started to appreciate life. I started to think that I do not want to waste my time. I want to live life to fullest. I want to think positively, no matter how hard all these things I’m sure that I could make it.

Last night, I’ve lost the battle.

This morning, I woke up and as usual login into twitter. I saw one of my friends posted “Why it always turns into drama or religious theme when we're having lowest moment?”

I’d turned into drama rather than religious theme.

I’m not ready with the future. I don’t know what to do. I’m scared that I’m going to lose one more time. Is thinking positively really can help you to solve the problems? Is it true that "When you want something, the entire universe conspires in helping you to achieve it (Paulo Coelho)."

I wish Godspeed for myself