Hello 2011

2011

New Year’s Eve without solution

Just keep it this way

The Happy Prince

Last month, a good friend of mine came to visit me.
Indeed, it was extremely short visit, but the meaning was there.
It was great to see her after almost two years the miles separated us.
She brought a great present for me; The Happy Prince and Other Stories.

It’s been a long time since I read children’s books.
The pleasure’s there.
These fairy tales from Oscar Wilde make me believe that there is a good thing in life.
A good heart will always be comforting,
Sharing,
Caring,
And most importantly that life is good.

The Devoted Friend has made me realize that friendship is about take and give.
I’ve been thinking a lot about friendship; observing how people behave around me, contributing in love and hate relationship..
This book helped me to think in more positive ways.

Oh how I love fairy tales..
I’ve had enough Prince Charming and Princess stories,
I missed this kind of fairy tales.
A good heart,
Think about others,
You’re not alone..

If you,
By any chance is dropping by in this blog and having a terrible life at the moment,
Go to the nearest bookstore,
Find some children's books,
Read this kind of fairy tales (forget about those Cinderella’s stories).

These stories are overwhelming.
Read and enjoy those books, because life is good.

:D

Perhentian Island

I went to Perhentian Island on July.
I know I’m supposed to update it in my blog, but laziness was there.

Perhentian Island was great. I had a lot of fun with C. We were planning to sit around the white sandy beach, reading some books and just enjoy the days. Yes, we made it.

We did some research and we chose Shari-la Hotel at Perhentian Kecil. The hotel was great; it’s quite affordable and satisfying. We could take a small walk to the beach in front of Bubu long beach. Its only 10-15 mnts walk.

Because of this and that, we could not get a direct bus from KL to Kuala Besut, hence we need to stop at Kuala Trengganu then only continue to Kuala Besut.

We arrived in Kuala Trengganu around 5 in the morning, because I couldn’t wait any longer, we decided to take a random bus to Kuala Besut. It was a yellow bus and it cost around 8-10 ringgit. Unfortunately, the driver was really unfriendly. I noticed along the way, it seems like we passed by village full with Malay. Charlie and I were wondering, is it because we’re Chinese so the driver acted like that? But seriously, he ignored us most of the time and he was so friendly with other Malay passengers. Ok, let’s forget about that.

Finally, we arrived around 11pm. We checked in and went for lunch. The package was 455 for 3D/2N, it included the one snorkeling trip around Perhentian Island, Bfast, lunch and dinner, boat transfer and so forth. The food was acceptable, the typical Malay food; Tom Yam, Chicken and etc.. The ambience was good; blue sky, white sandy beach and blue ocean. We had lunch straight away, there’s a white guy tried to play Soul Sister with his Ukulele, the lunch was perfect and romantic with the free Ukulele performance.

After lunch, we sat down in Shari-La’s private beach. It was quite and comforting. I wrote this on my journal;

The happiest day..
The saddest day..
Things will come; the highs and the lows.
Are you ready?
Which way should I choose?
I hate changing.
I hope I can keep this FOREVER.
White sandy beach,
I’ve forgotten about yesterday,
And there’s no tomorrow.
Today,
watching the clear blue skies with you in my arms.

Moreover, we decided to take a walk to the long beach. Long beach was fun, the beach is extremely clean and you can go further to the sea and it’s still clear without any small stones or whatsoever.

We enjoyed the day with laze around the beach, read books, watched people playing ping pong, football and swam in the sea.


Second day, we went for snorkeling trip. That was my first snorkeling trip and I’m not really good in swimming. Charlie had to push me several time.

Oh well, I shouldn’t talk any longer.

Perhentian Island was great. From the snorkeling guide I heard that Perhentian Besar is a good place to escape from your routine. Perhentian Island selling point is on the coral, diving and snorkeling while Redang Island is nicer in term of the white sandy beach.

I hope I can go to Maldives anytime soon (*wink to C)..

12

December has come.
I've successfully submitted my thesis and report.
Lets pray for the best.

I have more than enough time to update my blog.
Now, I will try to post my last moments in KL.
6 years+
I think I'm gonna miss KL a lot..

oh well..

Knock on the door

It started last night.
I was working with my boss, Joe.
We had a little chat about life.

C: I really love writing, but I always feel that I haven’t done anything yet with this writing thingy. I never had any achievements, I never joined writing competitions etc etc. I met tons of people who can do better than me. Since I was a kid until now, I write for myself only.

J: You should tell others about that. If you keep it to yourself, then it will lead nowhere. I love to write as well. I never joined professional writing class or whatsoever, but I was an editor before. I told my boss that I love to write and art. Then, he gave me the opportunity to lead a team for writing and designing the magazine.

C: I will keep that in mind :)

C: are you the one who writes for the Blueberry’s blog?

J: Yes.. oh yah, I should let you to do it. Can you write a journal for one month?

C: (Smiling happily)

“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you (Matthew 7:7)”

That’s true. You have to tell people, and then the door will be opened to you.

Cheers!

I didn't see it coming

I'm supposed to study, but here I am chatting my time away on Youtube.

Make me dance, I want to surrender..

comforting song from Belle and Sebastian.

<3

After

Have you ever heard of quarter-life crisis?
Quarter-life crisis happens to the people in 20s-30s.
It happens before/just graduated from college.
It makes people scared about what will happen next;
What kind of job they’re going to take?
Is it going to be good or bad?

It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn't know and may or may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now (http://www.cds.caltech.edu/~shane/text/quarterlifecrisis.html)

At the beginning of this year, I was confused.
I screamed a lot to C, until he couldn’t stand it anymore.
I was scared of what will happen next.
I was afraid that I am going to be nothing in the future.
I cried without knowing the reason.

I was alone, I couldn’t explain my feeling.
I was feeling insecure,
Until I decided that I need to have a journal to keep all my uncertain feelings.
I bought one, together with a card, for myself..

I tried to explain it to Karina.
After few months, she came and told me about quarter-life crisis.
She’s correct, I was having quarter-life crisis at the beginning of this year.

Now, I’m feeling good..
Leaving my adolescence era is not that scary.
Although I’m still here, trying to finish all those last responsibilities as a student,
I feel better.

Indeed, I don’t know what will happen next.
Indeed, I’m not sure what I am going to do in the near future.
But I have some pictures in mind (not one or two).

There are a lot of jobs to do.
I could be fashion buyer, journalist, writer or anything I want.
And the most important thing is; I’m not alone.

I dreamt about New York few days ago, now I secretly hope that I will find a job that allows me to travel.
Maybe I can write a blog about shopping and traveling with low budget; start from blogging and make money one day.
Maybe I can apply a job as travel journalist
Maybe I can go here and there

Maybe…
Oh I don’t like maybe..
I’ve decided, I will find a job that allows me to travel.
I’ll buy a map and pin every cities I’ve traveled.

Life wouldn’t be easy

“But life is good and it’s always worth living at least for a while.”
If she wants me – Belle and Sebastian

Back

It’s been a long time since my last post.
I took a month break from real world, it feels so good.
Now, here I am..
The real procrastinator is trying to make peace with her pending responsibilities.
Same old..
Same old..


PS: I miss you :(

Hat Yai Trip; when three girls were desperately wanted to eat Green Curry

I went to Hat Yai last weekend with Yuriko and Tarie. According to wikipedia, Hatyai is the southern part of Thailand which is close to Malaysia’s boundary. Yuriko, Tarie and I were there to have a short budget trip. We didn’t expect much, however it turned out to be fun.

We took a bus from Pasar Rakyat, Kuala Lumpur; RM 100 for return trip. The bus was departed at 10pm, we were expected to reach Hat Yai at 7am. It was a busy weekend so we finally reached Hat Yai at 9 am.

After this and that, we found a hotel; Hat Yai Asia Hotel. The hotel was old, but it’s relatively clean. We paid 900 Baht in the travel agent, but I think it supposed to be less than that.

Lee Garden Plaza was our first destination; we took tuk tuk to go there, 20 Baht each person. KFC in Hat Yai is extremely good! Highly recommended for Indonesian ;)

We walked around Hat Yai; Kim Yong Market which is not really suitable for us. At 3pm we took tuk tuk and went to floating market. The floating market was real fun. There were a lot of variations of food and its only 20 Baht for each meal. We got a chance to try Thai traditional food from the floating market. The drinks were selling with a Hello Kitty, Ultraman shape mugs made by clay.

There were some performances done by some students looking for donation. It was perfect; watched the sun goes down and heard the marching band played Somewhere Over the Rainbow. Oh how I wish I could go there with C. We left floating market when the marching band started to play Can You Feel the Love Tonight and catched a tuk tuk to go to Pe Thai Night Market.

We spent most of our money at Pe Thai; Pe Thai is smaller version of Chatuchak with almost the same fun. I bought a pair of jeans for 190 Baht!! We tried the best Kerabu Mangga ever and explored more and more stuffs there.

The second day, we departed at 7 pm. We spent our day to look for Green Curry. Lesson #1 from Hat Yai trip, it was hard for you to find Green Curry in Hat Yai. Apparently, Green Curry belongs to the northern side of Thailand. Yuriko was never been to Thailand before, needs to be satisfied with the Green Curry Chicken rice from KFC.

The trip was good, I don’t mind to go to Hat Yai for the second time. Let’s explore new places girls! 

07082010

Yes, I got a chance to see Belle & Sebastian live in Singapore.
It was damn GREAT!
The songs, the performance, the venue were perfect.

C, let's go to Glasgow.
We could watch their performance and waltz to the songs.
You could take some cool photographs and me enjoy dark hair blue eyes scottish guys.

<3

Dancing with fire

Lately, I’ve been chatting a lot with my high school friends.
I thought everybody has changed, wiser in our own ways.

We talked about silly stuffs.
A is the eternal kid, trapped in high school syndrome.
Changing boyfriends; thinking about marrying someone.
A says,” he’ll be my last. I love him so much.” But she’ll change her mind soon, I guess.

B is having the most stable life, in term of financial.
B never satisfied.
Complaining about how miserable her life is.
She’s having a boyfriend, one year younger than her.
He loves her deeply, like there is no tomorrow.
She is everything for him.
Life is a fairytale.
They will get married next year.
And live happily ever after.

C is having a quarter life crises.
She’s afraid about what will happen next.
She wants to make her mother proud.
Find a guy and settle down.
But she’s not really sure about it.

For god sake, we’re only 24 years old.
I feel wiser compare to them.
C is the toughest among them, because she needs to struggle to survive.
B is having the most stable life, but she does not know how to appreciate it, nonetheless she feels miserable.
A, hmm.. lets forget about her, she’ll always be the eternal kid.

Me??
I’m the luckiest.
I need to dance with fire, to make me stronger.
I did something bad to make sure I can beat the barriers.
I jumped to a risky business.
I walked through the hardest part.
I am here and there.
I learned, I asked and I heard.
I have almost everything I need.
Study aboard, struggle to survive, enjoying the life.
I did not enjoy financial stability like B, but I’m not empty.
I did not to struggle as much as C did, but I do gained some experiences from my hard times.

Thank you..
You need to know how to be thankful, because all the barricades you’ve to go through will make you stronger. You won’t be as empty as those who lived inside a stable life.

Dance with fire, but be careful you might get burned.
Dance with fire, and find the way where the fire won’t burn you down.

Explore. Dream. Discover.

“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines, sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.” – Mark Twain

When the time is right

Err.. Hello..

God loves me,
I went to the church last Saturday and now I have a secret project to do ;).
T has promised, if I can get it done on time and pass this project, she's going to give me one hour massage + scrubbing my whole body + kiss my butt.
Wish me luck mates :D

I just realized that I'm a heavy sleeper.
Once I fall asleep, I couldn't stop.
I used to sleep inside the cinema, classes, cars and etc.
Now, I started to sleep in the library or even at the "office".
I hope I can make money from this habit (just like Nobita).

I went to Bata's warehouse sale yesterday.
I bought a running shoes.
Currently, I'm on diet.
The 1200 Calories Diet.
It works amazingly, I've been doing it for two weeks and I've lost 2.5 kilograms.

So if genie granted me three wishes today, it will be;
1. pass the project
2. make money from sleeping
3. losing 5 more kilograms

Well, you'll know the result when the time is right.

Ciao!

Goals

#1 finish my thesis
#2 find a job
#3 get my parents to have a holiday

Rainy Day

This afternoon, I received a call from the International Student Department (ISD). The immigration asks me to come for interview. It's regarding my visa renewal.

I'm scareddddddd..
On the other side, I'm quite sure that I'll be able to answer everything. I hope everything will go smoothly tomorrow. Oh, wish me luck.

I feel like I'm running out of time.
I really really really have to finish my thesis.
Three months (I hope they're gonna give me three months, I wouldn't ask for more).
Ready or not, I have to go back.

The rain is falling outside.
Asking a mercy from God,
please help me.
tomorrow..
and the day after..

Enough

Lately, people are asking me about what I’m planning to do in the near future.
Honestly, I’m not sure, I have no plans.
I’m tired with those people who lecturing me;
You have to take this opportunity.
You have to go there.
You have to stay here.
You better think about this or about that.

Okay, enough!
I’ve been thinking about all of these things since I can't remember.
I’ve been trying so hard to make some plans.
After five months, I started to surrender.
I won’t make any plans, anymore.

Do you know that I have tons of thoughts in my mind?
Okay, I know you are older than me, but you don’t understand certain things.
Plans,
Considerations,
Plans,
A little bit of reality,
Changing plans,
Modified plans,
Re-plans,
And so forth.

Please, stop lecturing me. I’m the one who’s going to take all the risks. Let me live my own life.

I’ve decided,
No plans..
I’ll step to every opportunity I can get, whether it’s there or there or maybe there.
Don’t judge me.
I’ll take the risk

Taking Advantage

I'm supposed to work with Ashley today. Unfortunately, her father was fell down on his house two days ago. This morning, she took him into specialist and just found out that he needs to be admitted to the hospital for three days.

Phone calls were made.
Finding replacement but failed.

So here I am,
chatting, writing, thinking,
will open the shop at 5pm.

A little bit thankful because I can clean up my room, doing my thesis.
A little bit sad for Ashley.
Whispering, "get well soon uncle" in my room right now.

Hello May

THESIS..
Yesss, I'm doing my thesis right now.
Nothing much happening.
Moving out, moving in.
Confusion is challenging.

Oh well,
forget about my thesis,
forget about tomorrow,
The rain has gone..
Shiny sunset comes over through C's windows.
Should I take one more bite of Ferrero Rocher?
Mission hasn't been accomplished.

Same old..
Same old..

Hello the beginning of May.
I hope when the end comes, my mission has accomplished.

Current life

This afternoon, I chatted with my chatting buddy. We talked about others which is not good but very entertaining. Anyway, let's forget about others. Let's talk about me.

I have tons of interests; movie, fashion, music,politics, you name it.. But, I don't know what I want to be. In some way, I'm kinda Cristina from Vicky Cristina Barcelona. I'm not sure about what I want in life and love. Oh well, I can't stop thinking about life and love.

I like to talk with people, sharing my thoughts. Exploring others. I'm confused.

Please tell me, what should I do next? Where should I go?

I'm going to move out from my tiny little room soon. I'm going to miss this room so much. Tiny room without air-conditioner, but I like it so much. Every morning the sunlight wakes me up, sneaking in through my window. Feels like I'm waking up in my own room, not my temporary room. Splendid moment, indeed.

Dear mate, I know you haven't checked this video. So you have to do it now!

this is the link

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZOqc4B1GaN4

Until then, cheerio!

Perhaps

I found a journal to share something that I wouldn't share with others.

I sent a postcard to C to make our relationship works.

I met the old Chinese guy taxi driver that I used to curse and now I keep looking for him at 12pm, because he knows me and I know him and I get used to it.

Same old love and hate friendship.

Nothing lasts forever.

Moving on, face the reality.

Perhaps, if I don't have prejudice over almost everyone, I could be happier.

Perhaps, I don't need to think about others.

Perhaps...

I hate goodbyes

whispering Godspeed to the Korean Restaurant, especially the workers.
GOOD LUCK GOOD LUCK GOOD LUCK

All the best guys

Happy

A good friend of mine was telling me about this video

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kow8OoOCm6Y

Fifty People, One Question.

I like the last answer; I just wanna be happy.

Oh I guess I just wanna be happy.

I'm still facing the lowest moment, but this video has made me to re-think about life.

I just wanna be happy.

Thanks to a good friend of mine, you saved me, indirectly.

GODSPEED

Last night, I’d reached my lowest moment. I have tons of unfinished things which I’m not brave enough to getting it done soon. I was thinking about death. I thought it would be better if suddenly I could leave all those unfinished things.

When I was a kid, I always think that I will not reach the age above 30 years old. Why? I do not have plans for what I am about to do after 30 years old. I kept reading the tragic death of young people. I want people to remember me after I die, hence I need to die young and in tragic accident. I’m scared that I couldn’t see myself in the future.

When I grew older, I listened to many songs and started to appreciate life. I started to think that I do not want to waste my time. I want to live life to fullest. I want to think positively, no matter how hard all these things I’m sure that I could make it.

Last night, I’ve lost the battle.

This morning, I woke up and as usual login into twitter. I saw one of my friends posted “Why it always turns into drama or religious theme when we're having lowest moment?”

I’d turned into drama rather than religious theme.

I’m not ready with the future. I don’t know what to do. I’m scared that I’m going to lose one more time. Is thinking positively really can help you to solve the problems? Is it true that "When you want something, the entire universe conspires in helping you to achieve it (Paulo Coelho)."

I wish Godspeed for myself

two minutes after

C

I love you madly, you really got a hold on me

Yours truly,

Chika

six minutes before March 26

Hai..
Hellooo..

Happy birthday little miss Chika.

I'm just so blessed!

It's a great day to start a new age. 24 years old.

Thanks to;
Charliehensom (my numero uno)
MsKesuma
topi_pito
Ashley Chan
Nidi
Alun
Muthi
Felix
Nabila
rashidddd
irwan
weiyank
and last but not least my last costumers ;)

You really got me guys..

two minutes before March 26th, 2010.

THANK YOU!

:)

Two days ago I worked with my favorite colleague, K. We talked about people and suddenly I started to talk about one of the best moments in my life. Currently, these are the best moments in my life;

1. Trip with Ashanti to Singapore. 9 hours in midnight train. Forget about getting a sleep or feeling tired, we were just talking and sharing. Brushed our teeth in public toilet. Orchard Road early in the morning. Shared a cup of coffee and one piece of bagel. Listened to Ipod and watched people moving. Couple with two dogs. The smell of cigar.

2. Jackie & Amyrah. Late night coffee at The Coffee Bean Sunway Pyramid. Talked about families, guys and those deepest secrets we had. Moved to Sunway Monash Condominium. Spring rider and just talked until the light goes off.

3. C. Confession. Charming. Charlie.

The best moments. The best people. The best you and I acted in our best behaviors.

Love.

The Series of Unfortunate Events

I went back for CNY. A (my eldest brother) & I still haven't recovered from the last fight we had. We didn't talk much, I avoided him most of the time.

I celebrated CNY just like others. I went to a temple and try to read my future. Unfortunately, I got all the bad words. I tried few times, finally I got the better one.

I think, I think too much. I believe that my mind controls everything. I think too much about the bad things, suddenly I started to get the series of unfortunate events.

15/02/10

- fell down the stairs after I finished a really good massage
- canceled a trip to Bandung with C, we couldn't get taxi and it was raining at that time

16/02

- I couldn't get the book for my thesis :(

17/02

- met a very bad traffic jam on the way to airport
- my plane got electrical problems. changed with another plane and we left Jakarta at 9.30pm, we supposed to leave at 8.10pm
- reached KLIA at 12.30am.

18/02

- paid the internet, but the stupid internet provided couldn't updated my last payment

19/02
- same as 19/02

Although, all those thing could be solved, I'm scared that I'm gonna meet other unfortunate events.

Yeahyeahyeah, those weren't that bad, I'm just exaggerating those things.

Yes, those weren't that bad.

Everything will be alright

Everything will be alright

Everything will be alright

Everything will be alright

Don't think too much

Don't think too much

Don't think too much..

Everything will be alright so don't think too much..

Ciao!

Numero Due

Hello, I started this blog because I want to be more productive in writings. Most probably I will talk about craps, but I don't care.

These days, I've been thinking about life and plans. I've been listening to two songs for these past few weeks, TwentySomething - Sondre Lerche and Asleep on a sunbeam - Belle and Sebastian.

I want to go somewhere
feel the grass in my feet
Somewhere green
where I can have a big grin
I just want to dance like there's no tomorrow
Shop like there's no bills to pay
Eat without worrying about gaining weight

I want to sleep under the moonlight
I want to buy a map and pin every places I've traveled
I don't want to think about future
I just want to think about today

Should I? Shouldn't I?

I'm not ready for responsibilities.


Anyway, I went to Ipoh on 31st of January. It was a good trip indeed. I did feel the grass and ran under the sunlight.

Arrivederci